I am worried for now. Know I shld leave them aside, I wish I could, but the fear is growing in me. Ok anyway, I'm so relieved it's friday and suddenly Mr Zur's naggings during
last yr suddenly popped into my mind. Ya what he said was so true(i knew from the beginning) but ya it just feels so.... can't find the right words to describe.
I hope I can find extra time for revisions, I really need to learn to manage my time and emotions well! I'm so afraid everytime the thought of O's is there. I so envy people who have graduated, and I so want to graduate like now!!... but it's impossible thou, have to work really hard but I feel so uncertain now seriously for I don't know why reason, I feel extremely uncertain about numerous things. I have to cope with like my studies/dance/plannings/trips down to certain places and seriously make it fast!! It's getting so annoying when I can't find the correct time and day to slot in those activities. With remedials + CCAs, I almost have no more time already not even for revisions, I'm so afraid... and with the upcoming rehearsals for chingay, I think it's gona be fun but hell as well cos I know I'll turn into a even worse state, complaining that I'm tired, i'm tired, I'm so very tired! I wish somebody can hear all this, there will be, just not the right person.
On a brighter note, I'm happy that I'm coping pretty well with both my maths and physics. Happy that I have the best subj teachers for Geog(so hopeless in MY case)/SS/Chinese!! :) Happy that I'm am actually reading a book :D (Y) But still...No idea what happened to my chemistry, my mind go blank and i get all frustrated everytime I want to do my Chem ws. Sigh but I have to bear with it anyway, and make sure I do it right and get it right. I will get back my passion for Chem(I rmb how much I hated chem last time(first half of 2009) and who help me got them back, thanks Ms... LOL i forgot her name.) and I will ok, for sure sumpah LOL.
By the way... I will only be blogging once a week because seriously I have no time for it, and only can do a rough summary of how my days went in school and outside after 5 days of torture:( It's tormenting:C anyway I want to thanks a few people here for standing by me/or listening to my problems in the recent! It's stupid that I actually......let it past anyway. Thanks tang jp ts!! You guys are extremely great!! :) and i am so pathetic zoe accompany take 307 today. HAHA many funny things happened during dance today, had super uber fun! but I think we let xu laoshi down. anyway i just saw this look-alike-to-a-primary-schoolmate's-younger-brother-sec2-guy LOL he's super hardworking and he damn zai in push-ups.
I think that's all for this week and hopefully I'll be able to study every afternoon + nights excluding days which I have CCAs. Seriously I feel super nervous and jittery. I really want to do well and in order to do that I have to work hard!! I need more time for god's sake. I hope we have 48hours a day, well humans are greedy, aren't they? :)
I feel worn out.
I wish you were here.
I am so tired even the thought of makes me feel tired...
Aww.
I have lost a pal for more than a year, do you know how terrible it felt?