2nd last

Hmm I find my blog so plain. I can't make a new playlist no idea why.
I'm gona insert a new background behind when I find an ideal one.
For the second time, I have not get my books bag shoes and oragnizer!
I have not completed my holiday assignments.
I (L) my p_______ s____ ! :)
My new year resolutions?? I'll come up with them soon & hopefully 2010 will be a smooth-sailing year for me!
I'm happy :) and I know I'd be happier after I recover :>

Toodles!

I am going to change my music playlist

Hiding @ home.
HOW AM I GOING TO GO OUT TOMORROW??!!





I believe that everybody has a purpose living on Earth.

I hope I can recover fast, so that I can head out and get the stuffs I need and want before school reopens. Keep telling everybody that I don't want to attend school. I'm afraid, what if it doesn't go away. Am I thinking too much? So stupid lor, should have done it last monday instead of yesterday, only left with like 5 days-.-

I'll be visting my aunt & grandpa this sunday! I miss them! Gosh, it has been a month since I saw them, I was working every weekend hence I never had the chance to visit them. It's also the first time in my life not seeing them for so long. Really miss them truckloads.

Hmm I haven't got the album yet, I can't wait but I have to..
I miss evon too.
Have been staying home today taking my medicine and antibiotics. Feels so great to stay at home all day long as it has been a long time since I did that!

Anyway people I'm feeling so much better now, as in emotionally, thanks to those who offered to help me. But it's alright I know only I can help myself so yup :) but still very reluctant to head back to school. I still haven got my books, bag, shoes and organizer.

Am I pissed now? ughhhhh i don't know what to do now.
Stucked in some kind of situation that myself is confused.
Am I in the wrong? he was so big, big and big + sissy I don't know how to argue with him. And with the accompany of all his friends, just adds up to be disgusting.
Forever my fault. YA DON'T HIRE ME NEXT TIME ANYWAY I DON'T GIVE A DAMN COS I WON'T GO THERE AGAIN TO WORK. or maybe even to shop. Plain disgusting and gross there.

I hope blogger has some private this post function like LJ

Things are changing constantly, it can never get back to the way it was

working l8r on.
Payday faster come I want to get JJ album v BADLY.
He cheers me up so instantly Works like some kind of wonder pill LOL
so payday faster come kkkk!
Yesterday night when I was walking on the streets alone, suddenly nothing fears me.
Go away I don't want to see you.

So cute!! Buy or not buy? Hmm. Zoe help me!! ha ha.

Sad and blue

Don't feel like going out with you.

Thanks Santa, Thanks Jesus, Thanks God.

Thanks fo makin'me xcited when I was feeling so so so hopeless + helpless.



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I think her performance on Spectaculars #12 was awesome. Wishing her all the best for the Grand Finale on 27/12

I AM SAD.
I went ard blogs and they stated : I AM SO HAPPY. The worst I felt.
NOBODY CAN HELP ME. FORGET IT, IT'S WORTHLESS.
I CAN IMAGINE EVERYTHING THAT CHANGES NEXT YEAR. THANKS FOR ALL THE BOOTLICKING. THANKS, THANKS A MILLION THOUSAND TIMES. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. THANK YOU CRACKING THAT JOKE. THANK YOU . THANK YOU FOR BEING SO NAIVE FOREVER. THANKS I HOPE I'LL NEVER SEE YOU EVER AGAIN. THANKS.

All I want for xmas

1. Samsung ST550. Pretty please??


2.His new album to be release soon!(It will bring all my sorrows away HAHA)


3.To lead a happy, peaceful life.
(During work heh heh i like taking photos like that)


Been ages since I uploaded a picture of only myself. This is my blog, isn't it? So yup :)

Human tell lies

Decided to stay at home today to clear my assignments bascially, and head out to town tomorrow.
Yes, again.
I went 313 ytd!! It was fascinating I must say.
The Forever 21 there is 4-storey. I spent like 3hrs in there haha because it was big and the dressing rooms have reall long queues.
But the best part is, there is no unlimited amt of pieces you can try!
So all the ladies there are all holding onto a bunch of clothes.
I don't mind waiting for the fitting room if that's the case! :)
I only visited a few shops there as time ain't enough, I started shopping quite late as well.
And I had to leave 313 early to go over to Robinsons @ Centerpoint to get some stuffs so ya..
But it's alright, I'll be heading there tomorrow again!(sounds crazy)
Decided to give up on the movie and catch it on dvd, I have no money to watch it as well, so gave it a miss.
I know you won't be reading this, but still sorry!

Sigh I have to work the whole of next week.
Then after work ends, I only have like 1234days to go out if the doc says it'z alright fo me to go out, if not I only have approximately 1-2days to go out, which is so pathetic :(
Tomorrow I'll go shop for my dearest Evonne's birthday prezzie!
I can't attend her birthday chalet working that day.
I'm so sad so sad so sad about this matter, but well can't do anything to help too.
Because of work, I am also missing out my favourite tv shows. Heh ;)
Ain't I greedy.


Bye bye.
Blog again soon maybe.

Very soon school will reopen. I don't want leiiiii. How????? You say you would be there when I'm not alright. But where are you? I don't see you/your text/your call. Liar. Big fat liar. I hate you. I hate you for treating me like a toy. I hate you for messing up with my life. I can be very sure this is definitely not my fault because I have no intention to talk to you right at the first place. Pls at least clear up this mess for me now. I'm feeling terrible. CLEAR UP THIS MESS FOR ME YOU HEAR ME?? SCHOOL IS STARTING, IF YOU DON'T I WON'T BE ABLE TO CONCENTRATE, I WON'T BE ABLE TO DO WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO. It's all messed up now. I DON'T WANT MY MOOD TO BE AFFECTED DURING SCHOOL DAYS. I WANT MY LIFE TO RETURN TO NORMAL. I REALLY FEEL DEVASTATED. Why did you intrude my life without asking my permission??? Why did you do that??????? WHY CAN'T WE JUST BE FRIENDS, WHY DID YOU CRACK JOKES THAT ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE MENTION??? WHY? CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY. AND why are you giving me this attitude now? Have I done anything wrong? I HATE YOU.

Don't rely on others.

I don't blame anyone for causing the happenings.
I don't hate anyone for scolding me.
I only blame myself if I ever want to.
Because I chose this route, therefore I have to endure all that is happening.
Treat it as an experience, never regret and neither would I look back.
It's a stage of life I must say.

Certain glances are very memorable.

I'm going out later. Having my break currently, 4 days. Actually 5, but long story. So reluctant. But I guess that means more money rolling in ;) doesn't differs much anyway + I have already run out of excuses to reject.
Tomorrow I am going down to Town! Weeeee. Then Wednesday I'm not sure yet, gonna get my butt out of the house hopefully. Thursday I'm not sure either have to wait for confirmation lol but hopefully I'll get to catch that long-awaiting-movie I wanna watch! :)

HOHOHO. THIS YR WOULD ME A BORING XMAS FOR ME COS I'LL BE WORKING THAT DAY AND ON THE EVE TOO :( BUT IT'S OK, I WILL ENDURE. LOL Did I mention I'm having my surgery soon, pls pray hard for me. I'm not scared la actually. Maybe because there's still plenty of time. I think I will feel the jitters only on the day itself. Back to main point..

I would like to have this for my xmas present. It cost $549 fyi. Anyone would care to get this for me? It's so cool!(I'll write in the brief description some other time) I want it so badly but I know there's nobody so nice who'll get me this. Sigh...

Fate doesn't want us to meet. It sucks srsly. SO MUCH. TO THE MAXXXZ.

You seem like the angel but no you're not.

Put a smile on my face

Whoo it's raining! Good or bad?
My fringe is long already, i'll go cut again, but have to decide which salon. All-time or random pick? Hmmm.
Have to go prepare now. Ugh I hate the journey there. It seems so long and never-ending! And I tend to think about my thoughts.
:)

Tired

I realize I haven't been blogging about my personal life in terms of what I do everyday, well it's not necessary anyway.
I'm working l8r on, so damn tired. Super reluctant to go there plz.

I'll go trim my eyebrows next week and oh can't wait for the picts to arrive from cousin (Y) so happy =>

I can't wait to go shopping!! :-(

Pringles

HAVE YOU TRIED...
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THIS???

I'm munching on it right now ;)

An Education

Jenny (Carey Mulligan) is a bright 17-year-old girl who finds herself in a whirlwind romance with a much older David (Peter Sarsgaard). Prior to meeting David, Jenny was trying to excel in her life by going through prep school to get into Oxford. However, once she sees the lifestyle David can provide, she is hooked and thoughts of Oxford goes out the window. Then, when things are looking pretty good for Jenny with the dashing David, the truth hits her like a ton of bricks. Jenny goes from being a bright eyed school girl to a sophisticated young lady and then all the way back to questioning if she really knows who she is at all.

Ok, the bottom line is that I'm so gonna watch this! It has been released since 26nov, I didn't have the time hence it was delayed for a pretty long time. I don't to catch this on dvds but on the cinemas. But I do not have the time until, er next week. Ok anyone wanna join me for this movie?? I want to watch it so badlY !! :(

Enthusiasm X

-I will continue listening.

When they told me "let me think about it", I sincerely thought they would. Na, but later did I realized I was being fooled. Not pissed though, just think that why do you want to lie to me?? Nvrmd. I got no picts with me.

-No old picts, plzz. I will cry until so Very jialat one. I don't know why.

I'm tired and missing out a lot.

I'm the devil,

she's the angel.

I very tired. I only had freaking 6 hours of sleep which is not enough la. Tsk I don't want to go out! >:( I WANT TO SLEEP!! Boo hoo.


We were actually having the same thoughts but did not share it with each other, how sad.

Gona find someday to shop @ Somerset 313! LOL :)

The most beautiful meeting is like a handkerchief. It wipes away your tears and sweat.

I fall and get back up myself.

Gosh I didn't realize it was already 6pm! Only left with one hour, really have to rush!
Anyway I'm having really terrible sleepless nights. I fall asleep at 3am almost every night. Really loathe it, cos it will cost me dark circles under my eyes! :(

And I typed 23 messages last night about... because I just couldn't fall asleep, but I fell asleep aftermath. Ok it sucks ttm.

I feel bad

Let me list out what I had for dinner :

fried rice bbq drumsticks spicy stingray potatoes in gravy steam egg prawns with mushrooms 3 bowls of dessert ...

Sounds a lot I know. You think I can finish all of it? No way, ha. I had a little of each lol :)

it was yummy, but i'm still hungry.

-No work today, good or bad?

-My stomach is roaring, I''m so hungry!!

-I hate skipping meals, but I always do.

P/s: It used to be a habit of mine. You know why..

-No more xmas celebrations :( because of work.

-Unsure if I made the correct decision.

-Should I remind him? I don't want him to rely on me, but then again, he's my friend.

-Craving fo shaker fries.

-Last but not least, I need to get a mini organizer!!

-One more! I'm so gona get that blue toga dress!! Ít's gorgeous okz. And the aquapix. So cute ;)

I hate it when the comments people around me make, cause me to start doubting cos it's never good. Why am I so fickle-minded? Why can't I be firm and steady?

I'M SO HUNGRY. I WANT TO EAT. BUT I HATE TO EAT.

It'll be over

ugh. so shag. Am I under a lot of pressure? keep thinking things I should not have. But it concerns me anyway. So I should I guess? Number of stuffs that happened within one day of absence from the cyber world. I lost 0.5kg last week. Then I guess I lost ard 0.5kg ytd also. Ytd was crazy. I didn't felt hungry during work. So I didn't eat. I bought noodles for dinner. But only had few mouthfuls of it and I threw it away while I only had few spoons of carrot cake(weird way to measure the amt of carrot cake i know, but i had it with spoon)in the morning, it was very little.

And when I reach home at night ard 12-1, I was so so so hungry. But I didn't eat. I peservered and continued watching my shows. I slept around 3am last night, because my brain didn't stop working, it kept on functioning!! Leading me to think about things I shouldn't have. Anyway I couldn't 'afford' to sleep yet cos my hair's still wet. Worst thing is I woke up at 10AM today!! Sucks ttm la. SRSLY. I am so pissed off because I could not get back to sleep. AND I was still very hungry when I woke up this morning(it's never good to starve so badly). So I started having tidbitz. I just realized the kitchen "re-stocked" ytd when I was outside. Ha! Did not really satisfy my empty stomach tho.

Dreams.
I keep having weird dreams. I am considered the kind whom have dreams almost every night. So irritating. There are many many dream scenes i had. I dreamt of my pal, myself being handcuffed, some weird message that made me feel really awkward meeting that person in real life, a renuion with all my primary school mates(bascially my batch only, felt great to be able to see their faces), devastating news and many more. Here are just a few I can remember, and everytime I wake up from my dream, it would be a sigh of relief. It felt SO REAL I've to double confirm what is actually happening. And when I choose to shut my eyes and continue to sleep, my dream can also continue itself from where it stopped. So magical right? I'm used to it already.

K something random here.
If you guys catch this show(Easy fortune happy life) on cable ch 56 or dvd before, you should know the cast pretty well I bet.
But my focus is not on the main cast, IT IS...
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THE FOCUS IS NOT ON THE MAIN CAST BUT ON THIS CUTE LITTLE DOG!!!

(click to enlarge picture)
Haha I fell in love with this cute puppy(?) the first time I watch this show.
It reminds me of piddy.
So cute so cute! :)
I just can't get enough of it.
Hahaha
I shall stop all this now.
Have a great evening!

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sibei sian i cannot take it. I veh high now. & Tang is suffering now cuz I keep ka jiao her. lol she don't mind one nvrmd :>
Last year this day I in hong kong lei. ohmygawd, me miss the porridge there. just had porridge for lunch. sg one cannot beat hk's.
I just rejected gg to a wedding dinner of my biao3 aunt's son's. I know i should go. but at jb lei. or malacca ah? aiya don't know.
but I think of all the factors then I say NO lor. HAHA
K anyway I miss my biao3 aunt. She was there for me during the lowest pt of my life,shall not rake up the past. Till here! :>
the i-hate-goodbye guy never reply me. k nvrmd I off to do my sums. for real this time OKAY.

heee

hello i so bored. I keep go ka jiao people with my crap. LOL. I miss joey zoe eugenia qx & serene so much!! they like very busy while i like very rotten LOL. I want to go out with them. Feel like going suntanning lei. VERY BUAY TAHAN MY SKIN SO FAIR AND WHITE ONE. haha

unfair unfair!! one day I gona post about stuffs between Joey and I. veh funny one. Walao I miss her veh much but I think she vanish or something, I cannot find her. LOL & then our joined blog also veh dead like that. never update make me so sad. haha I want talk to her!!

I also miss gg out with that old clique of mine! I wrote old not because we splitted or smth, cos haha long alr, so old lor. K la i know i very lame shit. I really miss gg out with them

I want to go out with them. you hear me do you? they so funny and cute one.

everytime NEVER fail to make me laugh hard.

Awwwww i miss the old old times.anyway my mum keep telling me to clean up my room. but I don't want not because I lazy. It's cus I DON'T KNOW WHERE I SHOULD START AND I THINK IT'S PRETTY CLEAN. laughs. slaps head*

dumb sia me. I cannot stop typing.

I promise myself to do maths sums today. but until now I haven't do anything.

Huiyi haven't reply me :-(

Errrrrrrr I think i should stop this. Before I go, ................shit la i forget what I want to write.

anyway my mum told me top 25% of the lvl in school can get the edusave bursary thing. but for the past 3years I didn't recieve it-.- wlao. I got top 25% mah,don't have meh?? LOL i also don't know ley. eeee unfair. lol

Think I shall go now. Bye♥

XOXO,

you turned me into a mess. my world is upside down now.
I have become partially completely different because of you.

Collages

December already. I feel sad.
Sighs.

Ain't xcited 'bout anything.

bascially 'cus I'm disappointed about everything.

And it just gets worse everytime I turn on the computer.

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ok about the collages above, it's only meant for people inside the picts k..

so don't grab and claim the ownership heee tks

I'm sorry to the KALI for such small space

cuz I can't find any collage that shares 5 equal squares,

moreover,

it's a bit impossible hence the result.

I separated into KALI & PP (Y)

hopefully you guys understand alright :)

much luv!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO

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To be frank,

I'm just using him.

sucha meanie don't chiu agree >:(

but I know he's a very good friend,

so don't chiu worry

I'll cherish this friendship of ours