Why do you always think I'm so easy to coax? You think sitting next to me or making me smile is enough? What am I to you? A three-year-old, a fool or your puppet? You know what? You're really awesome. Because no matter how hard I try, I will end up losing to you at the end of the day. I can never make you feel as hurt as how you made me felt. That's what you called friends. Come on, I think we're more like strangers. What are you exactly hiding? What is all this nonsense? You know I have to pray so hard so that I won't fall into awkward situations. Kudos to you. You are such a fantabulous being. Thumbs up.
Anyway on much a lighter note, I think google is really informative! I learn so much from it and I think I'm falling in love with it. (Y)
On a much much lighter note, I guess I will start blogging more often. That was a good break I had from all the anguish. Really wish to end school and move on to my holidays. For the moment being, I don't feel like having school. Neither do I feel like shopping. I feel so restless, I wasted a shopping day. When I look at the clothes, I went like Oh no.. not again. I pictured the scenes where I have to push the clothes so hard just to take a good look. It might not even be one. I have to queue up for the fitting room... Forget it. I didn't bother to shop. And it doesn't feels good at all to be walking on the streets all day with nothing on your hands @ the end of the day. I need a break from all those constant frustrations.
Guess what, tomorrow's a Wednesday. 5 months back, it was a Wednesday too. This is so damn coincidental. I might faint. God bless me. Bye
Tuesday, June 29
Friday, June 18
Tuesday, June 15
Stop making promises
I'm still posting, whatever. I've never been so active before.
I made many calls today, no one is EVER free for me. So I guess I am not going to call anymore. I'm not angry, I have just been thinking a lot lately.....my head hurts.
I hate going to school, it just takes up my whole holiday which equates to no holiday at all. I have no time to rest, no time to replenish on my sleep, no time to ctach up with friends, no time to study. All I can do now is rush my ten-year series. Seriously no life. I'm so tired and I have to take dinner alone later. Might as well skip it.
And hey if you are somebody who can't keep promises after making them (in a moment of folly or without hesistaing), then please do not make any promises to anyone because you will just end up hurting them instead of making them happy. No joke.
I made many calls today, no one is EVER free for me. So I guess I am not going to call anymore. I'm not angry, I have just been thinking a lot lately.....my head hurts.
I hate going to school, it just takes up my whole holiday which equates to no holiday at all. I have no time to rest, no time to replenish on my sleep, no time to ctach up with friends, no time to study. All I can do now is rush my ten-year series. Seriously no life. I'm so tired and I have to take dinner alone later. Might as well skip it.
And hey if you are somebody who can't keep promises after making them (in a moment of folly or without hesistaing), then please do not make any promises to anyone because you will just end up hurting them instead of making them happy. No joke.
Monday, June 14
Symmetrical
Aim to complete :- 3 chem worksheets
- 3 maths papers
No complete no sleep! Pray hard for me. (Ps : I am going to do an entry on my friends soon, hopefully it does not attract too much unwanted attention, or maybe ill move it into ps)
Just an update, my grandaunt is so cute. She was trying to matchmake us (her grandnieces and grandnephews) yesterday, lol. BUT SHE FAILED TO HAHAHA. ok i have to go now. Will be back earliest on wednesday! Head's spinning a lil
Friday, June 11
What has the world become...
My mood now? Please-kill-me.
We're having our O's this year but why is there so many things happening? Things that shouldn't be happening are happening. HOW AWESOME. It's giving me massive headaches. I can only convince myself that there are solutions to everything but I don't think I can take it for long. WHY ARE THERE NO NICE SONGS??? *one chunk bcakspaced*
Yesterday was farewell. it's a new beginning let's see if we're able to adapt. let's pick up a new skill. throw away our phones.we will use our motuh to communicate next time. I can't take hints cos I'm dumb. not once but many times. hit me straight if you want too i'm too bruised to be bruised. I will still take life postively anyway so no harm, act strong only. all broken inside, believe me I can do it.
We're having our O's this year but why is there so many things happening? Things that shouldn't be happening are happening. HOW AWESOME. It's giving me massive headaches. I can only convince myself that there are solutions to everything but I don't think I can take it for long. WHY ARE THERE NO NICE SONGS??? *one chunk bcakspaced*
Yesterday was farewell. it's a new beginning let's see if we're able to adapt. let's pick up a new skill. throw away our phones.we will use our motuh to communicate next time. I can't take hints cos I'm dumb. not once but many times. hit me straight if you want too i'm too bruised to be bruised. I will still take life postively anyway so no harm, act strong only. all broken inside, believe me I can do it.
Wednesday, June 9
Your choice
A loser gets influenced easily because they can't make up their mind.
A loser gives up easily and put the blame on others because they don't reflect on themselves.
Today I'm saying all sorts of nonsensical stuff. I don't know why either, I woke up feeling better this morning but hmm.. Something's not right with me today. Loneliness? Maybe.
Whatever. I'm swimming tomorrow!!!!!!!! Serious ok :)
Oh yes, life is awesome!! \m/
It'd be even more if things were perfect, Na.
A loser gives up easily and put the blame on others because they don't reflect on themselves.
Today I'm saying all sorts of nonsensical stuff. I don't know why either, I woke up feeling better this morning but hmm.. Something's not right with me today. Loneliness? Maybe.
Whatever. I'm swimming tomorrow!!!!!!!! Serious ok :)
Oh yes, life is awesome!! \m/
It'd be even more if things were perfect, Na.
Monday, June 7
Busy bee
Last week has been a hectic one, been going down to town almost everyday, having lots of good food. I feel so disgusted. I hate the amount of food that goes down my throat, yucks. Yesterday I spammed lots of chilli because it tasted so nice and now I'm having a sore throat. Finally everything's over and have come to an end. I also had a lot of prawns these few days! Yummy :)
Anyway I have come up with a decision today. To sacrifice all my time and fun for studies!! Isn't this awesome. I actually have lots of activities lined up this holiday but I guess it's alright for me to skip it for the sake of studies. There's always playtime :) Easier said than done though!! I really have to determined enough!! But I need one day, just one day to hang out with the girls. It's been a long time since we last had a heart-to-heart talk. I miss them!
It is not that I do not want to say. I am just afraid that I will get carried away if I start to talk about it because now is not the right time to do so...
Anyway I have come up with a decision today. To sacrifice all my time and fun for studies!! Isn't this awesome. I actually have lots of activities lined up this holiday but I guess it's alright for me to skip it for the sake of studies. There's always playtime :) Easier said than done though!! I really have to determined enough!! But I need one day, just one day to hang out with the girls. It's been a long time since we last had a heart-to-heart talk. I miss them!
It is not that I do not want to say. I am just afraid that I will get carried away if I start to talk about it because now is not the right time to do so...
Friday, June 4
Splendid, no?
Tired. So tired I slept through the whole afternoon. I'm still very tired. Tomorrow is a long day and I dread it!! Totally. My holiday is going to be packed with many things going on, which is definitely good :)
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Life has been great, no, awesome \m/ You cannot imagine how awesome can life be if you dont throw those never-ending troubles aside and enjoy life. I used to be really pessimistic in the past. I keep crying and thinking that life is unfair. I especially hate 2009, even till now, but I've learnt to put everything down and move on. Those thoughts still lingers once in a while but it doesn't matter :)Don't try to avoid it, because it's all part of your life. Do remember not to let anyone control your mood because you are going to suffer.
I've changed for a cause. To enjoy life, to not only talk about everything I'm troubled about and most importantly, to start a new chapter in life. I do not want to bore my friends with sad incidents although we share joy and pain together. Personally, in my opinion, I think we should really enjoy time spent with friends and cherish youth. This only comes once in a lifetime. Why waste it? It may be inevitable that sometimes our mood is crushed for a moment due to certain issues but what matters is whether you are able to get back up onto your feet. I believe everyone is capable in doing that, it just depends on you.
Follow your heart in everything you do but remember to think twice. You'll never go wrong. Don't do, just because you're told to. Stick to your principles when you have to and give in when it's time to do so. Time doesn't wait so don't live in regrets, stuck in the middle of nowhere. Life awaits you with many possibilites and is filled with lasting memories we create. Don't be afraid, God will be there becuase He loves you.
Thank you for all that you've taught ♥
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Life has been great, no, awesome \m/ You cannot imagine how awesome can life be if you dont throw those never-ending troubles aside and enjoy life. I used to be really pessimistic in the past. I keep crying and thinking that life is unfair. I especially hate 2009, even till now, but I've learnt to put everything down and move on. Those thoughts still lingers once in a while but it doesn't matter :)Don't try to avoid it, because it's all part of your life. Do remember not to let anyone control your mood because you are going to suffer.
I've changed for a cause. To enjoy life, to not only talk about everything I'm troubled about and most importantly, to start a new chapter in life. I do not want to bore my friends with sad incidents although we share joy and pain together. Personally, in my opinion, I think we should really enjoy time spent with friends and cherish youth. This only comes once in a lifetime. Why waste it? It may be inevitable that sometimes our mood is crushed for a moment due to certain issues but what matters is whether you are able to get back up onto your feet. I believe everyone is capable in doing that, it just depends on you.
Follow your heart in everything you do but remember to think twice. You'll never go wrong. Don't do, just because you're told to. Stick to your principles when you have to and give in when it's time to do so. Time doesn't wait so don't live in regrets, stuck in the middle of nowhere. Life awaits you with many possibilites and is filled with lasting memories we create. Don't be afraid, God will be there becuase He loves you.
Thank you for all that you've taught ♥
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