Moving on to the next phase of life

2010 officially ends when the clock strucks 0000 tomorrow night. What a fruitful year… I quite like it I would say.

2010 wasn’t exactly awesome but at least it was still enjoyable. Apart from all the studying for O Levels, everything else was good. In fact, it was great. 2010 was definitely better than 2009, my character and life wise was a huge leap from how things used to be in 2009. A lot had changed and I’m pretty much satisfied with most of the changes.

I had the time of my life this year. Good and bad ones. Had lots of valuable lessons and beautiful days. Most memorable months would be May and July.

Also, 2010 was an eventful year. I swear. Chingay, the big ‘O’s, Grad Night, Prom Night. Also, international events like World Cup and YOG. Best part would be I’ve finally learnt to let go of the past. Not completely, but so much better than how I used to hold on and made myself suffer. Which wasn’t worth it. Hm this year was the first time in my ten years of education that I had studied my ass out and finally got a scholarship!!!!! Wee so hairpeee hahahhaha. I was also awarded with Eagles Award!!!! Heh kudos to Mdm Zhao! Attained A1 for my MT GCE Os as well, all thanks to Mdm Zhao again. Also had many first encounters this year, had the best birthday in my sixteen years.

Having said that, there are also many last times this year. Like my last day in secondary school and it might also be my last time dancing this year. I’ve made decisions that were right this year. I’ve no regrets this year, done good deeds and committed sins. No matter what I did, God is always there. And most surprising thing of all that happened in 2010 was that I did something I thought I never would.

Lastly, I’m not sure if this is a good or bad thing but yeah once again I’m even more confirmed that true love does not exist. Too many people around me have proven that fact to me, even my family. So about that thing that humans are intitally born with 2 heads, 4 legs and hands and yadda yadda. I guess I will not be looking for him and he’s not really interested to look for me either. Maybe he’s gay? Lol that’s nice we can be best friends.

I really learnt a lot in 2010 and I don’t bear to bid goodbye to 2010. Honestly, I think I’m a little unprepared for 2011. 2011 is so unfamiliar to me. There will be changes in 2011. Changes I can’t predict. It might change my entire life. Who knows? What has to come, will come. What I can only do, is to accept whatever’s that coming my way and make the best out of it. Life still moves on so I will still go on looking forward, continue to trust God, keep in touch with my lovely friends, stay grounded to my principles, meet new people and learn new things! Hopefully each year will be better than the previous one time after time just like how 2010 was so much better than 2009.

Cheers to 2011! Reluctantly…

Hi poopies

I am sad. There doesn’t have to be a reason. Nope, not going to tell you guys to leave me alone. Because I don’t want to be alone.

Day 30: Who are you?

Who do you think I am?

I am actually just somebody ordinary. I am not special and I am just like any other girl you see on the street. I am always changing. One day you see me I'll be like this, and few months later, I'll be yadda yadda.

Oh and this is going to be the same about me forever. I swear. If you make me feel comfortable or you're my close friend, I can basically laugh all the time when I am with you. Because there are a lot of things that are funny to me. Like some comercials on the Tv, they have been showing like forever but every time they show it I still can laugh like it's the first time I saw it.

Another thing, I really like to mingle around people who are funny.

Many a time, I don't know what I want. But one thing for sure, I know I don't want a promise from someone that don't stick to their promises.

There is so much you need to know about me but I don't like to let people know who I am. I prefer you to find it out yourself if you're interested.

Day 29: Future plans/goals

To further my studies abroad

Day 28: What attracts you to someone

A beautiful smile

OR

A pair of hairless legs




HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA ok I admit I'm sick but it's nice!

Day 27: Your fashion style

How should I describe.

I will not forsake comfort to look good.

Hey I have a present for you, can you come down now?

So how was your Christmas people?

Mine was fab! Christmas carols, dogs, toddlers, presents, candy canes, good food, christmasy atmosphere, things you see on Christmas… Everything was good except that I was caught up with a flu on the night of Christmas Eve. And it just got worser on Christmas. Ah what a spoiler. I enjoyed anyway despite feeling unwell. Haha it could have been better still! I was really sick by 4am this morning. Never never never felt so sick for a really long time I swear. Not even when I was studying for my national exams. Why oh why?

I’m still not informed about my schedule for work this coming week. I want to quit my working life but I know I wouldn’t survive for a month if I did so. F&B is so tiring and so not my thing. Yes I am complaining after telling myself to suck it up for so long. It’s been a month and to be exact, I’ve only worked 7 days for FC. In addition, 2 days for TL. I’ve got a feeling I do not need to work this coming week as well. So I’m going to quit after getting my pay which is a pretty small sum only. This is so upsetting ok. On a brighter note, the people there are generally quite nice

Hm 2010 ending in like what? 5 days. And school is starting. Not for me, for Eugenia and Zoe which means it is even harder to meet them.

I am afraid actually. 2010 has been too good to me. Life has been too kind to me in 2010. So it sort of got me hanging in the mid-air, not wanting to let go. Not wanting to move on to 2011. But this is not a joke. The first day of 2011 will still come. So I have to continue to believe that tomorrow is going to be better! It will be. What if 2011 turns out to be like 2009? I don’t want.

Day 26: First 10 songs to play on shuffle on your iPod

1. Making love out of nothing at all by Nicky Lee
2. Right here waiting by Nicky Lee
3. Sorry that I loved you by Anthony
4. Battlefield by Jordin Sparks
5. She says by JJ Lin
6. Just a dream by Nelly
7. Amber sky by Samantha James
8. ...

Help me insert

Day 25: How you found out about blogger & why you made one

I think it was through my friends when I was still in primary school.

It was the 'in' thing four years back so I just created it out of curiosity ha ha.

Day 24: A song that makes you smile

Hummingbird heartbeat by Katy Perry

Day 23: What you would find in your bag

Just those common things you will find in a girl's bag?

Day 22: Your nicknames & why you have them

Gene/Gen

Same pronunciation. Had this nickname since I was twelve. My friends started using it because my name was too long. This is also made for people who can't pick up the pronunciation the first time they meet me.

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.

I didn’t realize that I haven’t been blogging for quite some time. Hehe sorry.

Some luck I have, I have no shifts to work this entire week. Yay or nay? YAY of course hahahahahahaha. I thought I’d be pathetic like last year working on Xmas but guess not!!!! Weeeeee this means I’ll have activities coming up!!!! Then again, cash is running low for me har har har. Why is this always happening to me??!!?! LOL um I’m really super happy for some reason. By the way 2010 is ending boooo I was having so much fun then poof! it’s ending. I have a fear for 2011. Basically because um I know I will be losing something I know it is so important to me. I know I won’t be able to let go but I’m not going to like get upset over it because no point being so bothered. Maybe on the day of countdown everyone’d be welcoming 2011 and I’ll be the only one bursting in tears. Hahahahahaah!!!!!! K joke. Anyway that day Zoe Serene Verlin and I wrote on that ball, remember??? If you guys went to Citylink Mall recently I guess you’d know. YA the writing-on-the-ball ended. I was disappointed.

Oh and I’m so glad Zoe Eugenia and Aslyn got promoted to Sec 5!!!!!!!!! Hehehehehe so happy for them. Yup yup you girls did a great job!!! Then y’know on fb I saw this “After the letter N comes O” -.- I forgot who wrote this but it got me so panicky. I don’t even know the date for the release of results. I hope it’s soon so it’ll end my suspense faster but I’m also afraid when the date comes crawling nearer. What is this I’m only sixteen!!! K la nvm as long as life’s great now it is fine w me.

Er I had a nightmare last night hahahahahaahaha it will only be to me. My friends were trying to help me overcome my phobia of cats (walao-.-) so they carried a white one and came running towards me. So I was on the verge of tears and pleading them not to please please please. LOL Hui Yi was defending and I held on tight to someone’s ( I cldn’t rmb who) hand cause I was really frightened. @ the scene when the cat was brought so close to me I jumped out of bed. Seeee??? Don’t play with me please I’m really terrified of them. Also yesterday night when I reached home, the lift door opened, the cat was just outside like some statue blocking the corridor. I was scared stiff!!!! Lol so I called home which sounds ridiculous and told my mum to help me. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH so funny.

Lastly, I think I’m in love with…………………………………………………………… Gong Cha!!! Go try it if you haven’t! It’s heavenly!!!!!! Lol oh I noticed you are always the one doing the talking and I am always laughing wth

Day 21: Short goals you wish to fulfill by the end of the month

Nothing. I don't wish to have any burdens

Day 20: A letter to your parents

Dear Parents

Thank you for raising me up and sorry you're not the ones I confide in.

Love
Genevieve

Day 19: A habit you wish you didn’t have

Cracking my knuckles?

It is a horrible habit ha ha. Too bad it has stuck on me for several years. Hard to quit.

Day 18: A letter to someone you miss

Dear Someone I miss

I'm dumbfounded. What should I say? Oh...

I am stronger now. No worries :)

Love
Genevieve

Day 17: A photo that makes you want to cry

Big question mark

Day 16: A photo that makes you smile

Day 15: What you would if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant

Um I'm a female so I wouldn't get anyone pregnant. So if I were pregnant, I guess I won't know what to do? I can't predict what I'd do.

It is hard to say because under that circumstance, I might have a different decision from now? Yea so this is something left for the future to decide.

Day 14: Something you love about yourself

I think I love myself?

I must be thankful for everything God gave me, right?

Even if I hate it, I will learn to accept it.

Day 13: Your least favorite female group

Told ya'

Once in a blue moon

Hi there. I have a new category for my blog posts and it’s called You Can Skip This. Hahahahaha because it gna be really boring so don’t bother reading it.

I’ve got a huge problem. I want my body alarm to go back to normal. Like sleeping @ 11 and waking up @ 10/11? I cannot stand myself waking up in the noon every single day and sleeping late into the night. It makes me very sleepy during the daytime and I cannot open my eyes fully. Is there any solutions to this? On top of that, I’ve lost track of the dates. I mean I don’t really know which date I’m living in. Yea major fail. How can one live in such uncertainty???!!!!??!

I feel that I’ve lost touch so I really need to go shopping but I’m so lazy to move my ass hahahahahhahahahaaaa. I AM GOING TO MAKE THE TRIP TO BKK POSSIBLE. Lol I want to learn boxing. Inspired by Sz from Gun Metal Grey. I want to watch movie leh. So Teck Sing faster meet me ok.

Let me sidetrack a bit. She told me she changed. But I don’t believe in her anymore. Many people said, always say what you want to say before it is too late. Before things turn so bad there is no way to turn back time. Is that true? What if what you wanted to say might just destroy everything you have overnight? Will it still be worth it? Do you think you’ll be left with no regrets this way? I don’t think so. Because for the sake of some things I’d rather keep my mouth shut than witnessing everything end with my own eyes.

K that’s all for today. I really don’t like such random posts feels v lousy.

Day 12: Your favorite female group

I'm not those type that goes gaga over some pop groups.

Wait for Day 13. Another wasted day -.-

Day 11: A letter to one of your exes

I have been single all my life and I don't think it is something to be ashamed of.

So this is not really my day? Not applicable for me at all. Ha ha

Day 10: Your best friend

There are a few others who always claim that I am their best friend but hm I never really knew if they mean it.

So hehe Joey is my first best friend in secondary school days. I still remembered how much I hate having a best friend during primary school days then everything changed... After I met her. Lol! I sound like she's my boyfriend or something. Ok you know I love you!

Similarly

Hello. I think I am still blogging quite frequently right? Even though I said I am busy. Hm hahahaha cause I am working part-time. I’ve got a lot of plans up in my head and one of them is to finish the drama series of Gun Metal Grey. Hehe I know this is lame. Just completed episode 14 and now waiting for the auntie to deliver the dvds to my place on um… I don’t know. It’s quite a good show but if I’d have to choose, The Mysteries of Love or Every Move You Make is definitely better. Sorry ah I’m very hooked onto HK dramas, especially those that have something to do with crime investigations. Every time I watch such shows, I will go like WOW… And start worshipping the policemen/investigators/detective. Why their brain so solid one??!!?!??? Hahahahhahaha of course I know it is all part of the story but it is still so real that it keeps me wanting for more. Whoop <3

Anyway, did a small gathering with the dancers and Mr Peter on Tuesday. So glad to see all(almost) of them! But it’d still be good if everyone was present hees. We played Taboo! Hahahahahaha it was really enjoyable and hilarious. I always have a good time when these dancers are around! Miss all those ol’ dancing days even though the range isn’t a very ideal place for practices. I will never forget how dirty my soles always get after each practice, ewwwww so dirty la!

Day 9: Your definition of love

I don't have la. Simply because I don't believe in true love. Don't you think it is bullshit? Ok maybe not to you people out there but it is to me. No hard feelings ok. This is just my opinion. You can continue dreaming about your prince charming or that girl that is going to walk into your life and change you.

I don't like it when people say "You are like the air I breathe." or "I cannot live without you." PLEASE BE REALISTIC. The air you breathe has a name and it is called Oxygen. Without that person, your life still goes on. Even if the days are torturing, the pain is tormenting, but do you see yourself dying? No. And no one has ever loved someone more than another person do. We express our love in a different way. It cannot be used as a comparison.

What a worked up post. K bye

Every single time I want to go forward, there seems to be a string behind me pulling me away.

Stopping me from going any further so that I will stay at the same spot, so that I will never be moved.

I don't feel anything. I only feel something pulling my heart backwards. And the resistance is ten times stronger than the strength I tried to use to take a step.

It never succeeds and I can never proceed.

It sucks when you realize that you ignored the people that always cared about you to spend time with people that never cared in the first place

I'm always like that and when I try to correct myself, it's just... too late.

Still not used to Wordpress, hehe and that is why I came back here to blog a lil. What do you think about my 30 Day Challenge posts? They are all scheduled by the way.

Day 8: Something you hate about yourself

I have ugly looking nails >:(

Have you ever wished that Nobody exists?

You know… We always tend to go like, “Nobody understands our pain.” or “Nobody appreciates.”

Nobody is the best thing in the world, the world where dreams go wild. Nobody is perfect. Ah what a wonderful dream. *SNAP!* Sadly, this is reality. As much as we do not want, we have to face reality and be realistic. And reality is always cruel.

Day 7: Your crush

None at the moment. I know it is hard to believe because so many people are sure that I have one which is so -.-

But it is up to you to belive it or not :)

PS: Please ignore the time at the end of each post of the 30 Day Challenge. I scheduled this posts so the timings are not accurate.

Trying out

Still figuring out how to use WordPress. Hm challenging ha ha.

Reason why I’ve moved to WordPress is because, firstly, I like how I can public/private certain posts here.

Secondly, I really need a new url. So if WordPress is um, how should I put it in words… Anyway just give me some time to adapt to the changes alright!

Meanwhile, I’ll still be updating at my Blogger because I am halfway through my 30 Day Challenge. So this means both my WordPress and Blogger will still be active.

Heh do check back!

Day 6: A song that makes you cry

Every song can only make me cry once. I don't know why my body work this way. It can be irritating sometimes. The most recent one would be this.

What if — Ashley Tisdale

Day 5: A photo of something you really hate

There is no way I am going to post a picture of a cat up on my blog.

Yes I hate them a lot. More of afraid though. They make my life miserable.

Day 4: About your family

I have a seemingly complete family. I have a younger sister, a huge number of relatives and some I don't even know.

Not forgetting my dog, my late grandmother, my late grandfather and my late great grandmother.

All of you are my family. Because we have the same blood running in us.

One question. Are people these days still aware the true meaning of Family?

I bet not.

Day 3: About your friends

Majority of them are Chinese. I have friends that are Malay and Indian as well. Some are Christian, others are Buddhist. The rest are Free Thinkers like me! I get along best with friends under my age group. Ha ha who doesn't? My friends aren't the most perfect but I always enjoy their company. My friends have flaws but they have their strengths as well. I won't mention names but some are really thoughtful, understanding and sensible. And there is another group whereby they are always cheerful, gullible and hilarious.

I have always firmly believed that my friends are gifts from God. It is when you can treat your friends like your family, you have reached the highest peak of Friendship.

:)

Day 2: The meaning behind your name

I googled it and this was the best answer I got:

Genevieve is a feminine name. Its exact origin and therefore meaning is disputed. Some experts feel it is of French origin while others argue that it is derived from Old German meaning 'white wave'. Still others are convinced it is of Celtic origins meaning 'race of women'. It has many variations like Jenny, Gena, Jennie, Genavieve, Jenevieve, Geneva, Janeva Gina, Geneve, Genny, Genovera, Gennie, Genoveva, Genivieve, Geneveeve, Genevie and Genivee.In Christianity Saint Genevieve is the patron saint of the city of Paris. Her feast is celebrated on the third of January. She was a simple pious peasant girl from Nanterre in France. She shifted to Paris and stayed with her godmother Lutetia. In Paris her fame spread far and wide owing to her pious works of charity and her sacrificial adherence to a strict vegetarian diet. She is most revered for her contribution of repelling the invasion of Paris by the Attila the Hun. He went on to lay siege to Orleans instead.

There are some other answers which can be found here.

Day 1: 5 interesting facts about yourself

1. I have an appetite as small as an ant's which irritates me.
2. I eat as slow as a snail. Ha ha ha.
3. I am in love with weekdays and have something against weekends.
4. I wish I am 5cm taller.
5. I have an enormous crush on JJ Lin since I was eleven. In short, I idolize him!!