Done with studying for the day, sigh I feel so demoralised! Anyway that's not the point, there's more to come this week I guess.
This is for Kalipp:
Hi girls, I don't know if you saw it previously, I wrote on twitter I wish we had birthdays to celebrate everyday so we won't have to wait for special occasions. I realise that we will only be present, or in other words, have 'full attendance' when one of kalipp is celebrating her birthday. We never fail to miss out birthday celebrations for anyone of us and always make it a point to attend it. Thanks girls. You girls have bee a wonderful company to me throughout this short span of 2-3 years.
There's lot more I have to say than what is written in each of your letters but I can't remember everything because the five of you are different in your own ways but everyone of you stands a place in my heart.
Love,
Genevieve
Sunday, August 29
Unheard of
Hi. How's life everyone? I hope you guys are doing fine. Life has been good and....kind. Hehe I think I'm catching a movie later on but for now, I'm just too lazy to move, still lying on my bed. Anyway I want to share this with you people. It was sth I think I jotted down last sat or sun when I was studying hard(no) and I got so fed and totally lose hope, I don't know what else I can do.
Just because everyone expects the same from me,
Just because they think I'm smart
Just because I have to make them feel secured so I can't say yes,
Just because this is what they think I am
Just because people judge,
I can't give up even if I feel like
I can't say that I feel like a total loser because nobody will believe me,
I can't say no I'm not, because if I do they think they're worse than me,
I have to be what they think and potray me as,
I can't be myself
Even when I try so hard to say, people will just give me stares like I'm talking alien language, they think that I think too much, they say I'm stressed up, they say I do not need to worry too much, they will tell me off, they think I'm silly
And when I proved so that I'm really not who they think I am, they start thinking I'm useless, they think I'm fake, they will leave me because I'm of no use to them anymore, because I don't benefit them anymore.
I want to tell them so badly, but they wouldn't want to listen, that all of the above is no one's to blame. This world is too fake and too realistic. We measure one's price by their possessions, we'd never realise that everyone around us are priceless until.....we lose it someday.
I just recieved some criticisms yesterday. I think those aunties who think that I am weak and have no potential should talk to some people who think that I'm smart and no need to study to ace people. So that both parties can make a balance and shut up and stop judging me, thanks.
Just because everyone expects the same from me,
Just because they think I'm smart
Just because I have to make them feel secured so I can't say yes,
Just because this is what they think I am
Just because people judge,
I can't give up even if I feel like
I can't say that I feel like a total loser because nobody will believe me,
I can't say no I'm not, because if I do they think they're worse than me,
I have to be what they think and potray me as,
I can't be myself
Even when I try so hard to say, people will just give me stares like I'm talking alien language, they think that I think too much, they say I'm stressed up, they say I do not need to worry too much, they will tell me off, they think I'm silly
And when I proved so that I'm really not who they think I am, they start thinking I'm useless, they think I'm fake, they will leave me because I'm of no use to them anymore, because I don't benefit them anymore.
I want to tell them so badly, but they wouldn't want to listen, that all of the above is no one's to blame. This world is too fake and too realistic. We measure one's price by their possessions, we'd never realise that everyone around us are priceless until.....we lose it someday.
I just recieved some criticisms yesterday. I think those aunties who think that I am weak and have no potential should talk to some people who think that I'm smart and no need to study to ace people. So that both parties can make a balance and shut up and stop judging me, thanks.
Friday, August 27
Break free
Enjoying every little single thing ever since prelims ended on Wednesday noon. I know it's no big deal but I got to take a break. It's too overwheming. Anyway I'm half done with what I'm supposed to do and now I just need to wait for money to roll in so that I can get my materials. You guys will know when the time comes. So don't probe, I'm not going to say anything anyway. Now I'm thinking if I should go sleep or watch tv. I staying up late is bad for the skin but I don't feel like sleeping yet. I'm watching step up 3d with the girls tmr yay! So happy. It's always so nice to be able to meet them. We are all busy bees lol. Ok la I will sleep after my playlist finish playing. Hehe goodnight all.
Monday, August 23
What I shared today :
This was supposedly to be a tweet but it became so long I decided not to tweet it but post it here instead.
I realise I actually pray everyday, I pray for the littlest things but not unrealistic stuffs. It has become a routine unknowingly since young. The reason why I believe so much in God is not because I'm holy, it is because I believe that He is always there for me. Praying makes me feel better and no doubt never fails to make me feel secured which I really need a lot and is something I can never find from people around me. Thank you.
I realise I actually pray everyday, I pray for the littlest things but not unrealistic stuffs. It has become a routine unknowingly since young. The reason why I believe so much in God is not because I'm holy, it is because I believe that He is always there for me. Praying makes me feel better and no doubt never fails to make me feel secured which I really need a lot and is something I can never find from people around me. Thank you.
Sunday, August 22
Look at those fireworks above
Shall do this post before studying. There's like tons of dozens of things I can't wait to do after my prelims. It's always like this when I'm having my exams. Heard that Step Up 3D is awesome, gna catch it after prelims. Will date kalipp for this hehe. Ooooh and my heart is damn itchy to post everything that has been stuck in my drafts for weeks all at once! But cannot, my damn computer is not fixed yet. My house is full of lazy asses hahahaha. I have three books waiting, and lastly I'm gna get a dslr! I mean, I want one... :(
k enjoy your sundays guys, tmrw is monday again = boring. Haha bye!
k enjoy your sundays guys, tmrw is monday again = boring. Haha bye!
Saturday, August 21
Chapter 25
In a whoosh all my past feelings for him resurfaced. During all those months, I'd finally managed to suppress them. I'd battened down the hatches over these heady weeks when I'd believed that he'd really cared for me. I'd pushed the memories away, got on with my life, and I thought I'd succeeded. But seeing his name again was enough to resurrect it all.
Don't blame him, blame it on your frail soul.
Don't blame him, blame it on your frail soul.
Friday, August 20
The story unfolds, the truth uncovers
Aries and Independence:
Aries personalities are independent. Being the first of the zodiac signs, they venture out and are go-getters, often leading the way. Their upbeat and magnetic personality often entices others to follow their lead because Aries personalities bring excitement into others lives.
Aries and Friendship:
Aries are good friends, they always look out for their friends with caring and generosity and will protect them should the need arise and encourage them with their natural optimism. If confronted, Aries can turn to be quite childish, they will fight back with their agressive nature and are known to have temper tantrums should they not get their way.
Aries Temperament:
Independence is key to Aries astrology, they do not like to take orders from others and enjoy getting their way. They can get childish or moody should they be given orders that they do not like. Aries easily take offense to comments made. Aries are self-involved and can be self-centered, if they do not pay attention to the feelings of others, Aries can easily become spoiled and resented by others. In order to get their way, Aries will tell a lie if it seems advantageous to do so. They are however, not very good liars and other people can usually see through them.
Aries Deep Inside:
Underneath the strong, independent surface may lie insecurity. This is due to the intense drive to succeed and Aries put too much pressure on themselves, thus resulting in self-doubt however, the natural optimism and enthusiasm overtakes this and the underlying insecurity may never be known to others.
Aries in a Nutshell:
Aries is the first of the zodiac signs. Aries is the sign of the self, people born under this sign strongly project their personalities onto others and can be very self-oriented. Aries tend to venture out into the world and leave impressions on others that they are exciting, vibrant and talkative. Aries tend to live adventurous lives and like to be the center of attention, but rightly so since they are natural, confident leaders. Aries are enthusiastic about their goals and enjoy the thrill of the hunt, "wanting is always better then getting" is a good way to sum it up. Aries are very impulsive and usually do not think before they act - or speak. Too often Aries will say whatever pops into their head and usually end up regretting it later!
What it's like to date an Aries Woman:
Dating an Aries never lacks excitement. She is hot-blooded, and forceful, so you had better be able to handle the heat! The Aries woman is for the person who likes an independent self-driven woman who can fend for herself and is not clingy and needy. An Aries woman requires freedom. For the Aries woman, the best part of the relationship is the beginning, then the spark is there and she is trying to catch you to be hers. She will find happiness in a long-term relationship because she enjoys sharing everything with her partner. She will not only have a romantic partner but a best friend too. She has a great need for love and passion but she will never let a man become the master, she considers her partner to be equal. Aries women are not for domineering men. She will be faithful but she expects the same in return. She can be jealous because she wants a man to give her all of his attention, "all or nothing", so her jealously is rooted in her possessiveness, she has to be number one in his eyes. She will always encourage and give strength to her partner so an Aries woman is great to have in times of despair or need, she will always be there for you. In order to have this happy ending, she needs to feel appreciated and loved
How To Attract Aries:
Let Aries know that you admire them, they thrive of admiration and followers. Let them know that you love their zest for life and that you find them intriguing, they love compliments more then most other astrology signs of the zodiac. Compliment them physically and mentally, they like conversation about intellectual topics and engage them in a lively discussion, or a friendly debate. They love the challenge and the stimulation of good, intelligent conversation. Ask them for advice, let them know that you look up to them. Remember, Aries is the first sign of the zodiac and the most forward and independent, they love followers. Do not be a push over, do not keep your opinions to yourself because Aries will quickly get bored if you agree with everything they say. Do not attempt to control them however, they do not like taking orders. Aries are very capable people so if you go with their plans, you are sure to have a good time! If they have a suggestion for something to do, go with the flow, they like to be in control of what goes on.
Partially correct hahaha anyway just something to share
Aries personalities are independent. Being the first of the zodiac signs, they venture out and are go-getters, often leading the way. Their upbeat and magnetic personality often entices others to follow their lead because Aries personalities bring excitement into others lives.
Aries and Friendship:
Aries are good friends, they always look out for their friends with caring and generosity and will protect them should the need arise and encourage them with their natural optimism. If confronted, Aries can turn to be quite childish, they will fight back with their agressive nature and are known to have temper tantrums should they not get their way.
Aries Temperament:
Independence is key to Aries astrology, they do not like to take orders from others and enjoy getting their way. They can get childish or moody should they be given orders that they do not like. Aries easily take offense to comments made. Aries are self-involved and can be self-centered, if they do not pay attention to the feelings of others, Aries can easily become spoiled and resented by others. In order to get their way, Aries will tell a lie if it seems advantageous to do so. They are however, not very good liars and other people can usually see through them.
Aries Deep Inside:
Underneath the strong, independent surface may lie insecurity. This is due to the intense drive to succeed and Aries put too much pressure on themselves, thus resulting in self-doubt however, the natural optimism and enthusiasm overtakes this and the underlying insecurity may never be known to others.
Aries in a Nutshell:
Aries is the first of the zodiac signs. Aries is the sign of the self, people born under this sign strongly project their personalities onto others and can be very self-oriented. Aries tend to venture out into the world and leave impressions on others that they are exciting, vibrant and talkative. Aries tend to live adventurous lives and like to be the center of attention, but rightly so since they are natural, confident leaders. Aries are enthusiastic about their goals and enjoy the thrill of the hunt, "wanting is always better then getting" is a good way to sum it up. Aries are very impulsive and usually do not think before they act - or speak. Too often Aries will say whatever pops into their head and usually end up regretting it later!
What it's like to date an Aries Woman:
Dating an Aries never lacks excitement. She is hot-blooded, and forceful, so you had better be able to handle the heat! The Aries woman is for the person who likes an independent self-driven woman who can fend for herself and is not clingy and needy. An Aries woman requires freedom. For the Aries woman, the best part of the relationship is the beginning, then the spark is there and she is trying to catch you to be hers. She will find happiness in a long-term relationship because she enjoys sharing everything with her partner. She will not only have a romantic partner but a best friend too. She has a great need for love and passion but she will never let a man become the master, she considers her partner to be equal. Aries women are not for domineering men. She will be faithful but she expects the same in return. She can be jealous because she wants a man to give her all of his attention, "all or nothing", so her jealously is rooted in her possessiveness, she has to be number one in his eyes. She will always encourage and give strength to her partner so an Aries woman is great to have in times of despair or need, she will always be there for you. In order to have this happy ending, she needs to feel appreciated and loved
How To Attract Aries:
Let Aries know that you admire them, they thrive of admiration and followers. Let them know that you love their zest for life and that you find them intriguing, they love compliments more then most other astrology signs of the zodiac. Compliment them physically and mentally, they like conversation about intellectual topics and engage them in a lively discussion, or a friendly debate. They love the challenge and the stimulation of good, intelligent conversation. Ask them for advice, let them know that you look up to them. Remember, Aries is the first sign of the zodiac and the most forward and independent, they love followers. Do not be a push over, do not keep your opinions to yourself because Aries will quickly get bored if you agree with everything they say. Do not attempt to control them however, they do not like taking orders. Aries are very capable people so if you go with their plans, you are sure to have a good time! If they have a suggestion for something to do, go with the flow, they like to be in control of what goes on.
Partially correct hahaha anyway just something to share
Monday, August 16
You can't assure me anything
i finished my show. Same old routine tomorrow. I have like 2 months more. Yay!!! Ts, we are finally graduating!!!! Aren't you glad???? I am!!!!! But it's still another 2 months. Although I'm really glad to be graduating in 2 months time (yipeeeeee), I know there are things I have to learn to let go. Friendship.
"My love for you is second to none" C'mon don't be silly. This is nothing, anybody can get this out of their mouths and btw this is a favourite phrase in weddings and fyi I heard this in my cousin's wedding. All I felt was fear.
"My love for you is second to none" C'mon don't be silly. This is nothing, anybody can get this out of their mouths and btw this is a favourite phrase in weddings and fyi I heard this in my cousin's wedding. All I felt was fear.
I don't want to sleep and I srsly need red bull
I realise that most people have already went to sleep when I'm still wide awake. After I'm done with this post I'm gna watch tv. Anyway I have been trying to think of something to post since noon but nothing comes to my mind. Sigh this is bad I really need my comp to be fixed soon. I cannot be posting using my phone because my dashboard layout now is way oversized. Too big and I can't really control what I'm doing in here. I have got lots of pictures and thoughts to share. I know I've got to sleep right now because if I don't I can zonk out anytime in school tmrw but I'm really ultra reluctant to head to bed. I wish there is someone right now who can scold/persuade me to go sleep for the sake of school tmrw but defintely not my mum lol. Oh yes done quite a lot of productive things today, check it out on my twitter and @ night did my phy and geog development. My thermal physics suck to the core of the max. Esp worst when I have notes missing. My worksheets and books are all piling up in stacks of white paper lol. Kk I want to go watch tv and I need red bull! Gna get some after sch tmr, if I rmb.
I hate the fact that I've been told the truth that all men are labelled this way. ALL. Every guy I see on the street now has this label. I am so disppointed and I wish I can tell you how I feel but I know you will start going oh I see so what's the point? Who cares? You won't want to listen to me. Anymore.
I hate the fact that I've been told the truth that all men are labelled this way. ALL. Every guy I see on the street now has this label. I am so disppointed and I wish I can tell you how I feel but I know you will start going oh I see so what's the point? Who cares? You won't want to listen to me. Anymore.
Friday, August 13
Lies and fabrications
Hi I'm now blogging thru my phone isn't it awesome?! Lol
Anyway I've just created http://formspring.me/27petals haha I don't really need it but it doesn't matter
Remember to share your thoughts with me hehe
Oh yes, in the meanwhile, I want to direct you to: www.twitter.com/27petals for quick updates
I won't be here often until I can blog through my computer and my prelims are here, not so convenient
Need ta stay focused.
On side note, I realised I've lost quite a huge number of readers huh :'(
Anyway I've just created http://formspring.me/27petals haha I don't really need it but it doesn't matter
Remember to share your thoughts with me hehe
Oh yes, in the meanwhile, I want to direct you to: www.twitter.com/27petals for quick updates
I won't be here often until I can blog through my computer and my prelims are here, not so convenient
Need ta stay focused.
On side note, I realised I've lost quite a huge number of readers huh :'(
Thursday, August 12
Rain or shine, the clock still ticks
Hi everyone, sorry for the long absence there are some problems with my computer.
I promise I will be back do look out for this space ok!
Anyway all has been well for me :)
Love you guys max
I promise I will be back do look out for this space ok!
Anyway all has been well for me :)
Love you guys max
Sunday, August 1
Welcoming the new month
Hi August, July had been very nice to me, so I hope you would do too. I promise that I will be good.
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