Keep going somewhere afar, keep going somewhere I don't belong to.
keep thinking the impossible, then think that it is really impossible.
keep pulling myself back, but can't help to move forward
keep reminding myself to stop, but once again it's still the same
why is it so hard.
keep telling myself it'll be ok, keep giving excuses
keep wanting to make a move but hold back afterwards
keep asking why am I so stupid and blur,
why didn't I made that evaluation.
keep thinking that it's my fault, then it turns out to be No
keep recalling about the good days and tell myself you're bad.
why did I not get that damn hint.
it was so clear, but it thought it was pure.
or maybe it was just my wishful thinking.
I want to have an elder brother and sister :-(
and also a cute little younger brother 8)