She told me something that really shocked me. I felt sour then, tears started welling up.
Anyway that wasn't the main point, I just never thought schools can be that 'despicable'.
I thought that schools always help us plan the best route down our life, but no, i was wrong.
Schools make people feel unrealistic then thereafter tell you to BE realistic, how nonsensical is that? why must schools do this to us?
we are only at the age of 15, not any older, do you know how much it hurts? why force them do things that are not up to their mark?
why make everyone so stressed up when this is not what they are supposed to go through.
This is so unfair, i'm feeling sad for them. Maybe that's how life goes in sg, we have to adapt. And i know myself, i don't adapt easily.
Secondly, i know i let mrs lim down. She expected so much more from me, i dont know why i performed so badly.
I spent my day and night, my weekends, turning away everything just to spare time for my studies.
but it turned out this way. what went wrong? why must it turn out this way? haven't i put in enough effort?
I don't know why lah. I felt surreal when I first got my paper. It turns out that i actually blend in with the people around me. It felt different.
She told me to think of the bright side. She sure is positive, but i know i won't be able to be so.
Brings my mood so down whenever i think of it.
I could only read and think and stare but i could not help because you said not to.
All i could do is to stop him from asking and hurting you, i wouldn't want things to change.
I want to good old things to remain, and to be back. I do not want things that hurt you .
Because you are somebody i treasure somebody i love . it doesn't matter if you know
i just want you to be happy . though i am sad that you did not share it with me but it's perfectly alright
i understand and i know you will tell me when the time comes, but i felt as if i failed as a role of your ...
Sorry for all this crap bet chiu won't know what i am talking about but it's ok it's only meant for me to know :)
I am just feeling very emotional today , i need to cheer up.
Last but not least,
It is such a blessing to have Mrs Lim as my Physics teacher.
this is my 100th post anyway but i don't know how many times have i deleted my posts ever since 2006 so not accurate de lah :P