CHANGES.

So much has changed. Even I did.
but not totally. Some things about me never changed and never will.
I know it's useless no matter how hard I try to change the fact.
The fact is still the fact. It won't help by turning the world around. I know that, I understand.
But I just can't stop giving myself false hope. I tried very hard. But it just wouldn't go back to how it was.
Maybe our fate ends here. Though I'm really okay now, but if the feeling comes back anytime, it will surely be unbearable.
But i don't admit defeat. That's how stuborn i can be. I tried, but once again i'm hurting myself.
I don't know when will this stop. Maybe we shouldn't even have known each other at the first place.
But all this were destined, we couldn't change our fate.
Thus i'm trying very hard to live life happily and the way I want. And not let you affect me so much.
Sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn't
but i know who my happy pills are. They are the ones who really makes me happy all the time. Well, almost.

I'm alright just wanted to pour it out first before it goes out of hand .
I'm really okay. So much better than last monday okay.
I was like emoshit last monday lol.
Couldn't put myself up to smiling and even talking. What could anything be worse..

Anyway, just wna tell another you.
Avoiding is not a solution. I don't know what made you avoid me.
Is it because of the rumours ? I doubt so.
AIYA, what ever la. Im so lazy to type alre.

I know i use twitter and i don't follow people. Lazy mah
So busy now and exhausted.
Surprisingly, i'm looking forward to this sat's tution. :)
Gymming tmrw and jogging on sat i guess.
Living a happy and contented life. Hope it stays this way as long as possible.
I keep reminding myself to work hard.
I know my last yr's results sucks. That's because i have an unhappy memory.
And you don't comfort me, yet you rub salt into my wound when it is hurting so painfully.
That is something I still can cry about after 10 months. It has never gotten off my mind and it never will.
Lastly i love ram ok ! She always makes me laugh though she is soooo irritating! Hahahaha ! :D
Ohya. I really need a haircut alre. It's been months. Zzz. But i'm afraid i'll cry in the salon. ):
HOW ?

I just intend to write a short post.
I didn't expect it to be that long. lol:D