Hi. How's life everyone? I hope you guys are doing fine. Life has been good and....kind. Hehe I think I'm catching a movie later on but for now, I'm just too lazy to move, still lying on my bed. Anyway I want to share this with you people. It was sth I think I jotted down last sat or sun when I was studying hard(no) and I got so fed and totally lose hope, I don't know what else I can do.
Just because everyone expects the same from me,
Just because they think I'm smart
Just because I have to make them feel secured so I can't say yes,
Just because this is what they think I am
Just because people judge,
I can't give up even if I feel like
I can't say that I feel like a total loser because nobody will believe me,
I can't say no I'm not, because if I do they think they're worse than me,
I have to be what they think and potray me as,
I can't be myself
Even when I try so hard to say, people will just give me stares like I'm talking alien language, they think that I think too much, they say I'm stressed up, they say I do not need to worry too much, they will tell me off, they think I'm silly
And when I proved so that I'm really not who they think I am, they start thinking I'm useless, they think I'm fake, they will leave me because I'm of no use to them anymore, because I don't benefit them anymore.
I want to tell them so badly, but they wouldn't want to listen, that all of the above is no one's to blame. This world is too fake and too realistic. We measure one's price by their possessions, we'd never realise that everyone around us are priceless until.....we lose it someday.
I just recieved some criticisms yesterday. I think those aunties who think that I am weak and have no potential should talk to some people who think that I'm smart and no need to study to ace people. So that both parties can make a balance and shut up and stop judging me, thanks.