In a whoosh all my past feelings for him resurfaced. During all those months, I'd finally managed to suppress them. I'd battened down the hatches over these heady weeks when I'd believed that he'd really cared for me. I'd pushed the memories away, got on with my life, and I thought I'd succeeded. But seeing his name again was enough to resurrect it all.
Don't blame him, blame it on your frail soul.