Demoralised, ?

Life has been pretty fair, in fact, I'm lovin' life. Just that I have too much kept down there. It's pretty hard to have a bunch of friends that never fails to turn up for any outing. I see a real life example around and to be frank, I'm pretty much envious.

I have been wanting to get this up for a long time, but never had the chance to due to my laziness. I know this is pretty random, I guess you can do some comparison between those two pictures. How time flies...
2009

2010


Oh and this, one of the happiest day of my life. Thanks <3


Btw, there's school tomorrow. I really dread it...
I wanted time, I had it, but I don't know how to handle this.
May was a month I dread a lot, surprisingly, it turned out to be so great. June was disastrous. I hope July will pity me.

I didn't want that previous post to appear on the home page of this site so I made this post. I feel so much better~~

OK I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE I HAVE TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST.

Do you know how much I hate you? You are like a bloody stain in my life. I feel like rubbing you off but I can't. Why do you have to make so much comments on everything I do, write or say? Does it even matters to you? Do you have to notice all my actions and use your disgusting voice to say something? This is my life, not yours. It doesn't affects you anyway. I've never seen someone so disgusting before. Please, get out of my life, and myob. I really can't stand the sight of you, I wish you just vanish right away, this moment perhaps. I hate you. I really really hate you and you know what?? You are fucking gross. I never wanted to use that word but srsly I can't think of any other word to describe you. Please, my life would be so much better off w/o you. I don't even remember your existence and I don't need your attention. I'm not that pathetic like you do, at least I lead a healthy lifestyle. For the last time if it isn't clear enough, get out of my life.

You're the nicest friend I can ever ask for

Yay!!!!!!! Germany is leading! :) so happy ^^ anyway I can't believe Brazil actually lost yesterday.

I'm so tired! *Yawns* Haven't done much revision today. I only did chem. wait..... omg!!!!!! third goal for Germany :))))))) Ok I'm so happy now. I didn't expect myself to be so happy ok ok back to where I stopped. I was supposed to do revision for my upcoming Chinese oral. Ahhhhhh all the lazybones in me. I want to watch the match now. Bye bye :) :)

There always seems to be a bright light shining on you.

At the same time, I feel guilty.

Lifeless soul

It's depressing how some people can change so much over time.

Not talking to you makes more sense than talking to you. Look at the way we communicate. It is hilarious. Though you try to start a conversation with me, I keep pushing you away. I need some time to adjust everything back to how it should be. Not like now, in a terrible huge mess. I need to be organised. I need to endure all this torture.

PS: I feel so much more comfortable w/o a tagboard on my page :)
PPS: I miss dancing
PPPS: WHAT SHOULD I DO IT IS SO TORMENTING
PPPPS: Sorry for such a dull blog, .........

I love you

I realise I can never lead a life properly without the company of a dog. I'm too used to it. God please bless all the wonderful dogs in the world.

So infuriating

July is finally here for goodness sake! My first day of July was rather pleasant but the part @ the end totally destroyed evey single thing. Ugh never mind. My June was horrible but shan't dwell on it so much either.

I don't know if I am doing the right thing this time. I might end up regretting I know but I want to give it a try. I actually don't know what I exactly want. There's just big big question marks all over my head. I am anticipating for the day where the truth uncovers. Hesistating if I should tell this to someone but na, what stays in my heart, shall remain in there forever. At least I have some beautiful memories for myself which no one knows. That's nice, I guess? I just know I'm determined to do this. I wonder how long this will last, or will it just end tomorrow. Well, let's just take a step as the days passes by.

ANYWAY I am trying to adapt to a huge appetite. I still remember how I tried gobbling down lots of food but end up almost vomitting because my stomach simply just can't take so much food! I want to have a huge appetite, I want to learn to love food. Of course, my views won't just change like this. There's still a huge variety of food which I don't like. Ok I don't want to go on anymore. I want to go surf the net and talk to my friend. Bye

Do you always have cravings but you are not certain of what you are craving for? I do.

Additional :
This is my idol! I love him so much! My heart palpitates when I see him! hahaha yay i'm so proud of him such a talented guy. ♥ ♥ ♥