After much hesistation, I decided to do a post. My life is forever like this, happiness NEVER stays. I don't know what else I can say. Everytime I try to explain, I just end up stuck somewhere, and people will go alright, lol okay,... These are not what I want to hear from you, but I know I am the irritating who is refusing to pour it out. causing you guys to be bewildered and have no idea on how to help me out. Awesome, you guys are still. Thanks for always being there with me. I have a very simple wish and that is to be happy. Am I being too greedy to ask for happiness life long? Why do some get it then... Why ain't I the one who is supposed to play the role of a happy kid? The laughing all day long, cheerful, take one step, count one day kind of ass? Why am i the one who complain day and night, telling people I am feeling unhappy yet I don't know how to explain myself asshole? I find myself a pain in the ass, won't you get very irritated when i say i want or need to rant but all i end up saying is i don't know , i don't know and more i don't knows? Perhaps I ask for too much, my life just doesn't want to give way to me. I have too much problems on hand to start handling ,
- i just have to stop hoping for things to fall and happen
- i have to say it all out straight in your face
- why did you change?
- i need to pray hard
- i'm so irritated by how you guys are telling me to smile, don't ask me why i don't smile in front of you guys, I just don't, what do you want me to do then?
Still remember few days before the last day of 2009 what I texted you? Now i'm back to square one. just that this time it's another ass
FORGET IT, ANYWAY I WILL UPLOAD THE PICTURES TAKEN ON ZOE'S BDAY SOON. HAVE YET TO GET THE PICTS FROM HER CAM SHE CAN'T SEEM TO UPLOAD THEM TO FB I HAD A LOT OF FUN THAT DAY I MUST SAY ZOE IS SUCH A LUCKY AND BLESSED GIRL WHILE I AM NOT. I'VE SAID THIS TO HER UMPTEEN TIMES WTH... fml