........................................ Don't know where to start. I just wanna say that I am not perfect. Don't take me for granted and always think that I produce good work. I am human. I do make mistakes. Don't ONLY come to me when you need help. It is so upsetting when this happens. Can't you spare a thought?
I have no more confident in myself. Everything is just not going my way and how it used to be. I have lost hope in everything I do.
THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR JOY AND SORROWS WITH ME. THE FUTURE? IMPOSSIBLE. I WISH I COULD...BUT NO. Sorry
maybe this sorry should be said to myself instead. anyway I'm stronger now, I've got the hang of it on how to handle such stuffs. Hopefully all this feelings will go away soon. Stressed up like mad.
You won't be here I know. I have a piece of foolscap with my thoughts on it. I'm so glad I have somewhere to spam my thoughts. But it still feels terrible inside. Tomorrow is perf. To be very frank, I AM VERY NERVOUS. It's like some shadow behind me, I can't get rid of it. I can only bear with it and try to overcome it. People stop making wild guesses of what I am trying to convey here, you will never get it right. Nobody understands me. Nobody knows or even care what I'm thinking. I'm all alone even if I seem like I'm in a crowd. I still smile and laugh but that's just part of my everyday life. It's like a duty.
gtg bai bai