Taste like honey

Yesterday was happy sad day. I never did cried before teachers and all my juniors before. It's hard to explain why. People won't understand. Get it? Yes, I did NOT fail any of my subj so far and you'd say "it's just a common test anyway". I really hate to hear that come out from your mouth ok. So you expect me to console myself everytime I do badly for ct or class test with the same excuse? Crap ok. I needed to stop so I did stop aftermath, I picked my my sorrow and chucked it into the bin. Everything was over, I knew I needed to change my mood for the upcoming fun HAHA I won money from blackjack!! :) @ serene's place. I was so lucky I got an extra surprise angbao too. Yes I left around 9 plus reach home almost 10. Dead tired bathed and plop slept @ 11. my hair was not dry yet!! (I AM VERY PARTICULAR ABOUT THIS)
Oh I still can't forget how much fun I had playing balckjack with edi yihui huiyi serene jerald ryan kishan LOL
+++ I saw x10000000000000 cute dogs during canal walk ytd fitness session. I saw weijie running like he has never-ending stamina. I told huiyi how I wish I was like him, so I can run like crazy whenever I'm down, but sadly.. I do not have such fantastic stamina :(

IT'S GETTING PERSONAL HERE....
Stop doing this to me...Nice/cruel you choose. I won't intrude. Don't make me feel like turning back when I have already made up my mind. I don't know if you heard me but I saw you. You know what I like. You know what I've gone through before. So I was expecting you to get the idea when you saw what I was doing. Somehow maybe you did. I was standing there, heads down. I REALLY MISS MY BEST FRIEND. I don't know is it because you feel guilty because you pissed me off the previous night but somehow you knew something not's right(I hope what I guessed is true), you came up to me and said some totally no link sentence. I wanted to talk to you about how terrible I feel @ that moment but I was too weak to do so, within a few sentences, my head hung low and tears started to well up in my eyes..........
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One morning I was really random and started talking to huiyi about how I feel towards marriages and relationships. She told me my point of views are way too negative. Yes I know that. Come and ask me, you will realise my view is totally different from what normally girls my age'd think and wish about their own life's big thing. I said before, I am not someone who can give up what I am doing for something you feel that is more important. I admit I am selfish self-centred & stubborn.

Anyway pls do not add me on fb for no necessary reasons. I was damn reluctant to join it but for the sake of some reasons I had to. did I mention before? I hate this kind of online stuffs
so yea tho I do blogging it doesn't mean I have to love fb! :) So pls stop adding me so my mail won't be flooded! Ty :) Luv.