Wasted my time again.




omg after so long I still love him so much =) approx 4 years alre heh ;)

k i just realize I have 30 over post for nov. oh! tmr is dec alre. so sad sigh.
anyway I chose to come back to where I belong to, easier this way.
hitting the gymmz tmr ;) hopefully will be able to get rid of o.5kg. not greedy at all :>

Confession

there was this period of time when I saw 1111 everyday and night. K i know 11:11pm doesn't count. But can you imagine how you would feel if you experience these for days and even weeks straight through? Feels so magical and surreal, makes you feel like screaming. Cos when you eventually know the truth, it's HORRENDOUS


can't be helped.

Petals

Staying home today cos I maybe busy after this wed throughout. Well just trying my luck.
K anyway my comments were poof gone so I deleted the post above, and disabled the comments forum. Don't think there's such a need also la. A tagboard will be up soon i guess. Tag it ornot I don't care la.
Bye.

edited by G @ 5:03PM

ok lol. I'm done with my cbox. gona get things done fast and stay focus! anyway I have not solved my problems lol. Er and I don't know what step should I take next.

K i know I'm a scaredy cat. HAHA but I really don't want to go home on my own lahhhhhhhhhh :-(








WOOHOO. I so happy finally somebody filed a complaint to the RC before me lol. I keep forgetting to complain to the RC cos I srsly cannot take it. and you are so inconsiderate. You like doesn't means everybody like la. \m/ now cannot feed anymore right sucka.

I think my life is good. Maybe not having a job is a good thing.
Tho I'm so broke, I am still able to have time on my own to go out as and when I like. K la whatever.

where are you nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww :(

I give up.

1. I have been looking for jobs for almost a month already and still no news. Getting sick and tired of it but again, I cannot give up.
I have my reasons for looking for a job, ofcos one of the reasons is because I need money. The others I don't think I have the need to tell cos it's too personal anyway.
So pls kindly inform me if anyone of you do have any job recommendations. December is nearing alre and the last thing I want is to STAY AT HOME AND SPENT
MY DECEMBER AWAY.

2. My room is in a huge mess! I am changing different outfits so rapidly that my dirty clothes are piling up that I don't have the time to sort it out. + nowadays the weather so wet(Ha)
except for yesterday and today. Sun's good. Good for drying my clothes faster and perfect to go sun-tan. Also my worksheets are everywhere, it took me a long time to find my maths
worksheets before turning in the night before to prepare for my group studying the following day which eventually turns out to be a failure. Nothing much has been done
and the damn sun shines into the library causing the air-conditioned place to feel rather hot.

3. I saw a freaking adorable(bute but still very cute) domo bagpack @ bugis on monday. It was so adorable i'm so gonna have it when I have the money lol. Doubt so.
Whatever. I am currently so troubled about the cannot-find-a-job-problem srsly it's getting onto my nerves, k anyway domokun is cute and i love it 4EVA!! HAHA K ending my post naozzz.

I....................... can't wait to graduate.

I gave a smirk

LOL-.- I HAVE TO STOP SKIPPING MEALS(WHAT A WAY TO TELL MYSELF THAT.)

Studied in the noon for 2hrs with friends > Then headed home to have my golden deal 4 with cheese. Thanks serene!! (Return you your money sometime when we meet up. x10000000 sorry also!) > I lied on my bed(with the curtains drawn, making my room look cosy and all) and chatted with Tang till ard evening time The conver was so xciting and fun-filled. LOL!! Can't wait to tell them to joey(Faster contact me uh!)> er.. then here now.

I am feeling so tired despite nothing much has been done. Anyway hey I wanna look for some detective-sort-of novels. Any recommendations? I need it to kill boredom, tho it might not help. I want to watch some movie but there ain't any nice movies this season.

There's so much about my life i wish i can tell the world so they'd understand but it seems impossible.

Awww

This girl is so cute. Here's the link for related videos :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8y4G0_sotB4

Frowning

I am so pissed right now.

SRSLY MAN. CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU ORNOT. YOU CANNOT KEEP ME IN SUSPENSE LIKE THAT LEY.
WHAT IS THIS. YOU HAPPY HAPPY COME FIND ME TALK,THEN NOW WHAT YOU DOING. TRYING TO HOOK SOME OTHER GIRLS IS IT.
come prove me wrong

AND YOU. I DON'T FEEL LIKE MEETING YOU IN THE HOLIDAYS AT ALL. THE THOUGHT OF YOU JUST MAKES ME FEEL SICK
SRSLY SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE ENDING EVERYTHING HERE

Definitely I'm alright now. But sometimes when I am not careful enough I still accidentally fall into deep thoughts of thinking of you.

SORRY EVERYTHING SOUNDED MEAN

Broken hearted girl

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

Why the sudden change in you?

I love turning on the playlist and start working on my drafts.

When I have nothing more to say

Er... I have been staying home for a few days. Fortunately, I didn't felt bored. HAHA. It's like a break for me after going through so much lately. There's so much I can't wait to do. But first I will have to get a job. That damn lady boss didn't call me back. Srsly I was damn pissed. I went to observed other girls. Well it's all the same. I don't understand why she has such high expectations. Anyway I don't think she'll call me back. It's a pity though I enjoy working with the girls, they were all so friendly.
Next week is so gna be a busy week for me. I'm still having problems on how work it out. OH I just remembered about my appointment next week. Shit, that means I cannot attend dance on that day :( Gaah..It was dumb. HOW COULD I FORGET.

从盼望到失望到绝望

Two parallel lines never meet

Finally I am walking out of it. Thanks for being such a jerk. But well I hope this friendship won't just end here. I still enjoy sharing this friendship with you :)
In this era, I guess everybody will just have to learn to be gracious.

Irresistible

I am going to close it down. I am going to lead a life of my own. I'm going to enjoy what's worth to enjoy.

My hobby

: Stoning.










You know why.

Discard all your unwanted memories

I don't know what's the problem with me, srly. Yk was being nice last night to text me and tell me about thw meteor shower at 5am
and I actually told him off. I was just feeling totally moodless and well his text came at the wrong time.
this is not an excuse to vent my anger i know, but i really wasn't feeling good at that time. I'm so sorry yk! and anyway i didn't stay up to wait for the meteor shower.

Er I am actually still blogging after I said I won't be blogging so often but I'm so bored at home, without work and money I can't go anywhere.
Also I guess I won't private my blog alre. for the moment. i don't know so it's still good if you leave down your mail if you want to be invited
fyi, the comments you commented needs to be approved by me before it appears on the comment forum lol so sorry for that uh

ANYWAY I AM STILL FEELING ROTTEN, MY MOOD ISN'T FIXED YET. JAZZ LESSON TMRW. HMM I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY LOL
MY CALVES ARE VERY VERY PAIN NOW. SHOULD I GO OUT TMRW?? I FEEL LIKE GOING TO THE LIBRARY.
I'M GNA UPGRADE SOON. BUT I DON'T REALLY FEEL HAPPY LEY


WHEN I WAS LOOKING THROUGH THOSE OLD PHOTO ALBUMS,I CANNOT STOP CRYING.

RANDOM LAMENESS

NOWADAYS YOU CAN'T SEE ME ONLINE MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA..

K I'M SO LAME BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO OVERCOME MY PAIN. AND IT'S TOTALLY BECAUSE I AM ....
HAHAHA SHAN'T TELL YOU ANYWAY IF YOU ARE CLEVER YOU WILL KNOW LA HOR.

CAN SOMEONE PLZ MAKE ME HAPPY????????? I KNOW THAT IS SO DIFFICULT. I'M SORRY I'M FUSSY. UGHHH. I FEEL LIKE GOING CRAZY ON SMSES BUT I'LL HAVE TO WAIT TILL I UPGRADE HUR. WHICH IS DON'T KNOW WHEN -.-
WHEN I'M IN THIS KIND OF MOOD WHAT YOU SEE IS NOT THE REAL ME I GUESS
I JUST WANT TO MAKE EVERYTHING SOUND SILLY AND LAME SO I CAN LAUGH AT MYSSELF. AND I AM NOW.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLLLLLOLOLOLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOL!

BOOOHOOO I MISSED MY FAV SHOW TONIGHT. 2 IN A ROW LOR.
TMR SUPPOSED TO GO OUT BUT CANCELLED DUE TO... LONG STORY. LAUGHS.
SO I SHALL STAY AT HOME LIKE A PIG AND WAIT TILL SOMEONE CONTACT ME TO GO WORK OREADY!! OR COME OUT PLAY LEI... LOL

I'M WAITING I'M WAITING.. SO FEEL FREE TO TEXT ME BUT I MAY NOT OBLIGED TO YOUR REQUEST. I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING MYSELF. I AM OH-SO-LAME I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE

GOODNIGHT LOVELIES. SWEET DREAMS :)
AWWWWW.

You've forgotten

Hmm. Hi Dance was awesome today and tiring as well. My arms were aching and so sour!
I woke up at 11 today? Then replied all my texts lol. Sorry i didn't meet you guys for b'fast! :-( so i took my time to prepare cuz' I was feeling so freaking terrible.
So so so terrible my goodness. I was so rude to my parents because I really felt like shit and it feels like they're getting onto my nerves even when they're just talking to me.
Reached school early. WALAO my face so blank+no expression lor. So no mood. but anyway things became better in the noon i guess?
Perhaps because I focused on dancing and not other nonsense.

How I wish someone were to talk to me and say : "Are you ok?"
Ya but if someone really does that I guess I will just shake my head with a forced smile.
It has happened so many times. Suddenly I rmb the time when I broke down in class. gosh

Hmmmm, oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENIA!!! :) HOPEFULLY YOU LIKED THAT CARD I GAVE YOU YTD. *WIDE SMILES* LOLOLOLLLLLOL
AND SORRY TO TS AND XAV AH, FOR BACKING OUT LAST MINUTE. SRSLY I HOPE YOUR DON'T BLAME ME
I REALLY VERY SORRY BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT CAN I DO TO PROVE THAT I AM REALLY SORRY
PROMISE NO NEXT TIME KKKKKKKKKK :)

Before i forget, i had a sneak peek at the year book this year! Well it isn't as fantastic as last year's and as i was expecting it to be.
Rather plain and boring but guess the effort was seen. anyway there's going to be this newsletter next year and serene and i was approached by tam to be a part of it.
SOOOOOOOOOOO.. since serene agreed before i do, i agreed RELUCTANTLY. Srsly i not interested in it, but I dk how shld i tell tam so i said ok. lol

I HOPE ____ ____ WILL COME LIKE HOW IT ALWAYS DO :(

Bye everybody

PS : CLICKNETWORKTV IS SO FUN. MOST IMPTLY IT KILLS TIME!!! LOL

HBS

I turned on my computer for a reason and that is to type :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE!! Everything I wanna say will be in the card. Do anticipate!! :)

***

anyway, gna be so busy(filled with dance and outings with my friends. i like. oh and work too). Well have actually been busy ever since last week. So worn out and I haven't had enough sleep. Work was ... alright i guess. Having dinner alone after I knocked off. So pathetic right :-( Waiting for the call. Sighs i wonder if they'll call back. Anyway i have drafts coming up. So, stay tune!

Gift of a friend by Demi Lovato

Sometimes I think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside
When you realize
The world comes alive
And there'llbe things for I
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you find
The beauty of all when you'll open your heart
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend
The Gift of a Friend

Someone who knows when your lost and
Your scared
There through the highs and lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you go

You'll change inside
When you realize
The world comes to life
And there'll be things for I
From beginning to end
When you you have a friend
By your side
That helps you find
The beauty of all when you open your hearts
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground
You'll, You'll feel all alone
When you don't know which way to go
And there's no such leading you on
You're not alone

The world comes to life
And there'll be things for I
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you find
The beauty of all when you open your heart
And believe in
When you can believe
You can believe in

Slowly.

lol I am actually posting. whatever.
Anyw anyw, I am a happy girl today. I stopped myself from letting my thoughts run wild. Indeed I was feeling really overjoyed. I laughed so much my muscles ache. HAHA.
And! It was a happy day in school(except for the promises that were broken)
It's 4 now. I have to go start and prepare!
Hmmm.. what else do i have to say?

I just hope i'll overcome everything, but i know all this needs long term patience. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Broken hearted girl by Beyonce

The song makes me feel sad.
afraid that i might sound ridiculous.

Sleepy

Ain't in my best of mood today. Partly perhaps because I felt extra tired when I woke up today.
Until now, I'm still having heavy eyelids. Anyw, I guess I'm gna stay home the whole day. Freaking tired to even step out of the house.
This kind of feeling sucks doesn't it.
Also,

• fully booked this 2 days.lol
• can't wait to get that job, hopefully
• recieved a shocking news ytd night when i was about to sleep
• thankyou jerald for your words of encouragment :)
  

Needless to elaborate and i want to go museum.bye.

Doubtful

Suddenly, I felt doubtful about my choice of getting into a Double pure science class. Of course I'm happy, but it's really stressful to be in that class. And I wonder if I'm coping. They say I am, but I am still doubtful.(sounds ridiculous when i say i only got doubtful at the end of my sec 3 journey)
And geography is seriously killing me. I guess i'll have to fork out some time during the holidays to catch up on my Geog. I think nobody in the level got such low Geog marks like mine. Shit.

Nonetheless, I love being 15! But I guess it wasn't really well spent you know(as in i wasted it and i'm going to be 16 in few months time, Reminds me of friday, when some guy asks us : "You guys are turning 16 soon aren't you?" We was like : "Ya, next year." LOL!!!!!!). Cos the new environment is really causing me a lot of problems. I can't adapt.

5th post of the day

Keep going somewhere afar, keep going somewhere I don't belong to.
keep thinking the impossible, then think that it is really impossible.
keep pulling myself back, but can't help to move forward
keep reminding myself to stop, but once again it's still the same
why is it so hard.
keep telling myself it'll be ok, keep giving excuses
keep wanting to make a move but hold back afterwards
keep asking why am I so stupid and blur,
why didn't I made that evaluation.
keep thinking that it's my fault, then it turns out to be No
keep recalling about the good days and tell myself you're bad.
why did I not get that damn hint.
it was so clear, but it thought it was pure.
or maybe it was just my wishful thinking.

I want to have an elder brother and sister :-(
and also a cute little younger brother 8)

$$$

I need money really badly!
Any job recommendations? If yes, pls comment/message me the details. Tyvm! :)

2012 , msk

Want to catch this two.(a bit slow cos I have not catch msk)
I need money!

WHY I SO STUPID DUMB BLUR AND CLUMSY.

Much better and still trying

Heyheyheyheyheyhey!!! I feel so tired now. Can't manage to find any jobs today. So damn tired like dont know what. I don't know why do I feel much more tired than normal school days. Not only me, Tang also. So tired lei my gosh. And starbucks cheated our feeling.lol lame.

K, my conver with Tang is so funny!! :D but i wont tell your what is it about :P
Yknow (something random) I banged into the wall this morning while i was sleeping. Lol shingz. So pain you know!! And i think it was so pain that I had a really BAD headache during maths lesson. I didn't even copy down notes cos really so shingz pain-.-

Here's a picture of me and my group members @ the prawn farm!(I dont know why yiwei is standing so far apart) We had so much fun. Heheees :) The pict is rather dark, so sorry. You see i holding the net with prawns that we caught. I so brave right lol. I still remembered what happened to the first prwan I caught. so LOL.

Tons of assignments to complete. Numerous sets of new steps waiting to be learnt.
Sometimes, it isn't the matter of being a juvenile or a delinquent.

I think all of us have to put aside our high-minded principle for awhile? Just to blend in the crowd?
Bet so. Sounds ridiculous and unreasonable. On the other hand, what if nobody is willing to take a step back?
Well.. Then there will be no solution to the problem. Meaning you're stuck!

Just for clarification purposes, I'm alright now i guess. Much more better! :)

It feels like a jerk, dumb and stupid to use a few candles to represent the girl you like.

Nokia

Nokia E72(coming soon)

This caught my eye. I think it is cool. Do you? I know this kind of phone are more of for people who are working,
but there's no rule saying students can't get this phone, isn't it? And the color is unique too.
I'm kind of having the idea to get this type of phone, with 5mp. I think that is already good enough for me.
I don't know whether to stick back to Sony Ericsson or change to Nokia. I think both has their benefits.
Never am i using LG. haha, too many negative comments from the people around me.

Omg this phone is attracting me too much. And I'm dying to get one.
I really think it's so cool! and did i mention before? I hate following the crowd. and i hate it when people asks me dumb questions.
but it think it's way too early for me to talk about changing a phone. My plan's not even up yet.
Anyway i am contented with my current phone except for the number of times the phone shuts down automatically each day.
Also i'm not really concerned about how old the phone is, as long as I am contented with it, i guess thats fine:)

N97, 5mp too.

I am rather curious about samsung's phone functions. Tell me about it.

Today was alrighty!

Hi humans! Hows your day? Mine was tiring! HAHA. Didn’t attend school today, went for dental consultation. So stupid one. I talk to the specialist can vomit blood lor. He keep repeating the same thing even when I alre phrased my questions differently. Anyway have to go back for monitoring once in awhile, and my holidays will also be partly filled up by dental appointments. Sheesh. :/

You know you know!! I enjoy so much talking to tang on the msn. So fun talking to her! I always start to crack lame jokes and make her sian diao which is extremely shiok one lor. Laughs. We are all damn lame behind the computer screen, and still as lame even we are face to face. Heheeeees. Anyway I am going to look for job with tang this Friday. It’s a pity the other can’t join us. Yknow i have totally forgotten about WORK until people around me started to talk about it, then i was like, ohya! Me myself why never go look for job ah. Such a forgetful ass aint i. Before the holidays i was still talking about it and when the holidays started, i actually forgot bout it. Dumb sia. Lol

I think i have to go now. My sis has been waiting for quite awhile (oops) kz byeee! I’ll blog again if i have the time. (I realized i have been blogging almost everyday. How rare!)

They spell something

Went back to school for lessons, was rather early. It sucked as usual. Not the lessons, it was .. the........
Forget it. No use mentioning anyway, because at the end of the day No one cares.
I'm starting to feel it was a wrong decision to cut my hair(fringe) but neither do i want to have long long fringe.
So I'm like a bit stuck actually. I don't know what should I do to my hair. lol
Maybe I should put that aside first.

This year has been a really fast one, and somehow, I am scared to face the days as every month passes by.
It is just too fast I couldn't catch. Everything seemed like yesterday. The scene of first day of school is still rather clear in my head.
Flashbacks about this year kept appearing. To me, this year hasn't been a good one. In fact, it was really lousy for me.
How I wish I could repeat my 2008 again.but i know it's impossible, next year O's alre.
like so so so fast! &Frankly, after almost one whole shit year, I have not adapted to the new surroundings, seriously.
On a happier note, I have gained quite a lot of new experiences this year as well as learning new things not relevant to what we learn in school :)

Ok anyway i am so pissed off right now cos i turned on my speaker to listen to some music and yet there's some other music popping out from somewhere else
then i also cannot find where is the music sia. so dumb righttttt. so i turned off my speaker. It took me quite awhile to finish up this post,
too many distractions. Gdnight readers :)

So much real life examples

If you like a girl, you shouldn't hurt her, should you?
I don't understand.. and, this is all so dumb, isn't it?
Ha.

Should i private my blog or not?

True or not

I.. stayed at home the whole noon today. Had a hard time sleeping ytd even though I was feeling tired.
And today, when I woke up, the same thing popped into my head, so crap isn't it. Just can't get it off.
So due to my bad mood, I didn't go out today and instead, i decided to rot at home. And i seriously meant ROT.
I was just lying on the sofa the whole day without knowing what to do next.

My cousins are having chilli crab for dinner. shit right. Make me envy like siao, it has been 123456789 years since I ate crabs.
Lol. I miss eating crabs, one of the best moments in life. But, I am having pizza for dinner later (haha).
I just made a call not long ago. and Fortunately, i didn't burst out laughing. have been eating so much lately.
just had a 6-course meal ytd @ Dozo. ya it was so funny. shan't go into lurid details.
The food was alright , perhaps it is awesome, but to me all food is like .. food. lol i dont fancy food, in fact i think it is something troublesome.
I eat for the sake of filling my stomach, in another words, means for the sake of eating only.
Also, i'm not the go-gaga-over-food type of girl. laughs. so i don't think it is blessing and never would i pamper myself with food.

K, back to where I should be. Anyway some funny incidents just happened during the meal and after, it was so darn embarrassing..
I had a good day yesterday :)
OH. Evonne! Evonne! I miss you. So sad that I won't be able to see you today, hopefully next week or the coming tuesday.
Who knows. i miss your chubby cheeks. Heh hehs.

Tomorrow will be another day in school. Sian. I know i will have to switch back to study mode.
Wish me luck people! I wonder how my day at school tomorrow will be.